'Nuff Said

Hope everyone has a great... Whatever. xDD For me, it's Christmas. :)

My New Playlist

It's at the bottom of the page. Enjoy!

TWO WEEKS AGO

There was a BC swim meet two weeks ago. This was during my hiatus.

I swam the 50, 100, 200 and 500.

Picture time.



And finally... I am no longer a C swimmer. I'm finally a B swimmer.

THE 50 (DAY TWO)
I didn't do so hot. My favorite thing in practice is my worst in a meet. Oh, the irony.

THE 100 (DAY ONE)
See that red ribbon? I bettered my time by at least ten seconds. One minute and seven seconds. Daang. (B time!) -^^-

THE 200 (DAY TWO)
Did pretty good.


-- B R A C E Y O U R S E L F . --

THE 500 (DAY ONE)
Twenty lengths. Ned said our goal ("our", Ned? Please..) xD was to break seven minutes; my practice time was a 7:21














I got a 6:40. How'd I do? See that pretty blue ribbon?...

Stay tuned.

Way past overdue

Again; another return from another month-long, unintentional hiatus...

Nothing much has been happening... Which must be why I haven't been posting.


However, time to break the news; heads up Philip: My parents want me out of HTHCV. If this isn't my last semester here, then there's a very good chance that this is my last year here, unless Dane, Kay and I can find every single reason why I should stay here. I already have a few...

I'm trusted and respected here. If I switch out, I won't have the bonds with people like I do here. I won't be trusted or listened to like I am here, I'll just be another face in the crowd. Just like EastLake...

This school isn't like others... I know there's more reasons, but I can't think of them right now. They will come to me and wind up here eventually...

Stay tuned.

Come Crashing Back to Earth

So here I am again... I'm near positive that Josh doesn't like me.

So in the morning, I asked him if he wanted to hang out during lunch... He said yeah; he had a project to work on, but other than that, sure.

Uh, which explains why he was with his friends at lunch, right? Sighh...

Keith even told me to keep cool; there could be a million reasons why we didn't hang out... But I'm just me, so I jumped to conclusions, thinking that it's because he doesn't like me. And I'm still thinking that...

Stay tuned.

Held underwater...

GREAT NEWS !!

Josh said he wasn't freaked out by my unexpected (for both sides!) telling him that I like him. We're getting to know each other better, and the signs he shoots at me are still looking way positive! I can't wait for tomorrow... We're playing Capture the Flag (as usual) and, if all goes well, a game of hook-up tag (yet another game that only Ms. Moran can explain correctly)?

After talking to him after school, and finding out that he wasn't creeped out, I felt this overwhelming sense of joy and relief (I've still got it!); I suddenly started taking deep breaths, and it felt like I was underwater for so long, and I was finally given the chance to breathe again...

Stay tuned.

VOTE NO ON PROPOSITION EIGHT

I break from my teenage life to broadcast a serious message to the citizens of California.

There is nothing to like about Proposition Eight. Nobody is being protected. Children would not learn about same-sex marriage, and churches would carry on as if Proposition Eight were passed; they would lose nothing. The only thing we are, however, getting out of Proposition Eight are people in love (the same exact kind a straight couple feels!) being oppressed because their love cannot be expressed like a “normal” couple’s.

If Proposition Eight is not passed, not only will public schools not educate children about same-sex marriage, but schools cannot do that anyways. Schools cannot teach youth without the consent of his/her parent/guardian, and on top of this, said youth’s caretaker could ask that they (the youth) not be educated about same-sex marriage (or anything else they do not want their youth learning about, for that matter!) and all would be said and done. The fact that the youth and future of California (and the world!) is acting as a pawn in the fight against same-sex marriage, something that should be reprehensible, as it is only aiming to take away the rights of two people in love, is shocking and disgraceful.

Not passing Proposition Eight would require no religious change whatsoever. It is a known fact that no religion will be required to change its religious policies or practices with regard to same-sex couples, and no religious leader will be required to honor, or even recognize, a marriage contradicting his or her religious beliefs; nobody would.
And still, one cannot be sued for being against same-sex marriage. It’s California law that discrimination against anyone based on race, religion, gender, or sexual orientation is already prohibited. The same goes with same-sex marriage.
Proposition Eight denies equal protections and writes discrimination against a group of people… It takes away the right of their love to be known. Is this what you would want if it were your love in jeopardy? Marriage is not about gender, or anything else, for that matter. It is about love and nothing should stand in its way.

Parallel Episodes

About a month ago, I got a, um, "secret" admirer (it was not a secret) xD

Lately, there has been this one guy in both PE and Music who's been giving positive signs, I guess. I did the same (pass a note) yesterday after school, and my friend did tell me he read it, but I don't think he knows it's me yet...

Stay tuned.

Another intentional hiatus broken, ... [BRACE YOURSELF. IT'S A LONG ONE.]

... Another lifestyle change tacked onto my persona. So much has happened since I forgot that I had a blog... I decided that every day I'd take a new risk in talking to someone that I like... Or, whenever the chance comes that I can talk to him. I tried this with Brian; it went pretty well. Until...

My final risk: What color were Brian's eyes anyways?
Me, by myself (with the help of tracking him down from a friend, Nick) told Brian that I like him (because a part of me in there somewhere got the thought that he was starting to get the idea anyways). He rejected me, as suspected... But one small leap for someone else, a giant one for me, right?

ME: Things could be different between us after I tell you this...
BRIAN: What?
ME: That... (freakin' long pause) I like you.
BRIAN: (scoff) I don't care. (walks off)
ME: (runs after him) So is that a yes or a no?
BRIAN: What?
ME: ("idiot..." I think) Do you like me back or not?!
BRIAN: (stares for a sec and walks off)
Well, Brian didn't know. Not until I told him myself. Oh, yeah. Brian has green eyes.

Later that week, Nick told me that Brian was laughing because I had the guts to tell him (in a nutshell)... He told me that he punched Brian in the face for that, too. I'm just glad he got away with it. I'm pretty glad Brian eventually got what was coming to him, too. All my friends knew that Brian was a HEE-UGE jerk... Even Nick said so; and they're friends. They even told me too; I don't know why I didn't listen to them. Even when I strongly enforce the "don't date guys who are jerks to your friends" rule. Hmmm...

After that, I liked this kid, Evan, for a while... He was (was? is!) my opposite... He's really quiet, and I'm well, not. We hit it off pretty well; he might not like me back, but at least he said I was nice (and we are, no matter how indirectly, sort of friends)! Brian didn't really say anything...

And to top it all off, it's a well-known fact now: Cory is, in fact, going out with Rachelle (or is it Ashley?). Whoever it is, he doesn't like me at all, so I can back off now. Thank God that's over!... Right?...

Stay tuned.

It's been a while, has it not?

Since I last posted? No, it hasn't been that long, but since I came up with a brand spanking new song? Yes. Yes, it has. I have no idea what to call it yet, but I have a feeling it'll do with bells, because that's what the music sounds like. If my camera weren't broken, then I'd totally record me playing/singing it, but it's broken, so in the mean time, here's the song:

PS: It isn't about Vamp, Philip. (Well, okay, we'll see...)
PSS: Heather, it could be about Cory.


VERSE ONE:
They've never seen the good in me
They've never understood
So I took a walk through all Downtown
To blend in with the crowd
You caught my eye and I turned around
You stood and looked at me
Then I was spellbound and you kept on smiling
Like you knew who I was
When I stopped and I saw you just staring right at me I swear that I felt time stop just for us
And all of the people making their ways right past us didn't seem to care
I looked behind, before, all around me to see if you meant it to find there was no one else
And I thought to myself that this can't be happening when you made your way towards me

Chorus:
I like how your voice sings and rings just inside me like the bells I can't get out of my head
And I love how your eyes shine and how your hair's just as golden as the sun that shines just for you

For you

VERSE TWO:
We talked and walked around for a while
You didn't want to run
I never felt this good before
I started to wonder why
Then I realized that all this time up until now
All of those moments were lies
I've never really truly been loved
Or felt the way you make me feel

Chorus Two:
I like how your voice sings and rings just inside me like the bells I can't get out of my head
And I love how your eyes shine and how your hair's just as golden as the sun that shines just for you
And I'm not sure why I find how you love me so hard to believe
Maybe cause before you, I've just felt so lonely, I just couldn't see

VERSE THREE:
I can't believe how new this feeling is to me
I can't understand how I managed to twirl around
Lost and afraid up to this moment now, I think I've finally got the hang of things
And me

CHORUS

So once I do find a way to record this, video or not, it's going on here, because I pretty much have the whole song down. Speaking of having songs down, I've been learning ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE by Counting Crows. All I need is the solo near the end of the song, and I can play it all.

I sprained my ankle yesterday. It hurts. )=

Okay, then, brace yourself (Heather, you might get a kick out of this!)... I think Cory might like me! I'll tell you a few reasons why I might think this:

LAST YEAR

-Once at a monday rehearsal, I felt really down; tears were falling down my face while we played. The sun was shining, and it made that gold plate on his bass really shiny. He looked my way, and I guess he saw me sad, because after he did, he noticed the sunlight and shone it in his friend's eyes. Everyone laughed, including me, and he nodded at me.

-Me, Edgar and Stephanie were hanging out just outside the door. Just inside the door, there's a drinking fountain. I guess we were sort of looking in his direction, and then he caught sight of us and spit water on the same friend's shirt (by, the sound of it, his favorite one, too).

AND THEN THERE'S THIS YEAR
-Edgar and Stephanie told me he was watching me walk when I was coming to rehearsal.
-So me, Edgar and Stephanie are hanging out at the playground with everyone else this time. We're all walking back into practice again, and Cory's walking with his (same!) friend, right in front of us. His friend said something along the lines of, "She's right behind you," and he looked our direction. There's a sort of archway we all walked under. He did a chin up with one arm on the archway.


Oh, and I think I'm falling in love... But I don't know with who. I just feel like I am. Very indescribable...

Stay tuned.

Three (and a half?)-for-One

Okay.

So I met this exchange student at EastLake High when I went to Alissa's track practice on wednsday. He's from Denmark, and he's really great, but I think he might be dating Jessie's cousin...

And I still have no idea why I can't talk to Cory (my, it's been a while, am I right?). I don't know why it's so hard to me! Edgar even said that he was watching me as I came into the room... The signs he gives (is he giving them?) seem really positive... So why is it so hard?!

And then there's Brian. Still! I don't even know what to think about him. I'm not sure of the signs he gives... I noticed today one of his eyes are crossed (or something of the sort)... So why do I want to like him even more after learning that?? It's not about looks, definately, but why do I seem to like him even more after I learned this?

And, all in all, I'm beginning to doubt how much Catherine really cares... Again...

Stay tuned.

Some turn to priests, others to poetry...

... I to my friends. I talked to one of my best friends, Andres, today about being nervous about liking Brian. He said that maybe it's that I'm scared of rejection... Even if it's happened so many times?

Maybe he's right, though. And even so, if I've been rejected so many times, shouldn't I be used to it? Why am I so scared? If Brian is just another guy that doesn't like me back, then I should just move on... Why can't I just accept that?...

Stay tuned.

The first...

...Week of school is actually done with... With a three-day weekend for Labor Day!

Hooray...? I don't know.

Remember Brian? I talked to him today; he has the same Humanities teacher as I did last year (funny little coincidence much?)! I can't believe I don't want a three day weekend just because I would rather talk to Brian... Or have any weekend at all, for that matter.
At lunch when I was hanging out with my friends the other day, he kind of lingered away from his friends, closer to our group and watched us a bit... Maybe he does like me back...?

I can't help but feel that I don't want to like Brian. I just keep running into this same pattern over and over and over again! You know, the one where guys never like me back, except for the ones who lie? And speaking of that, remember Keith (the fickle, high-maitenance one)? I have a Spanish class with him.

Oi. -.-;

It's going to be a long semester, but next semester can't be much better. Even if I take art next semester, he'll still be in that class with me; that's the way the cookie crumbles at HTHCV, I guess.

So, in short, I might be scared of becoming too attatched to Brian... Already?! So, yup, you guessed it, I'm writing a song about this experience... I have about half of the chords already, now I need some lyrics...

Stay tuned.

Nick and the coffin case

Sound exciting?

So here's my friend (almost kindasorta like my son), and he's... About seven. Eight tops. And he has this GIANT case shaped like a coffin that, if it was a little deeper, I think I could even fit in (I'm 5'7"; maybe even 5'8").

I'm a dog whisperer!

Well, technically speaking, no I'm not. But I did teach one of my dogs, Sammy, some cool new tricks while I took a little break from blogging!.




While I have been teaching Sammy more physical tricks, I noticed my other dog, Lucy, was scared of the hoop...

Everyone knows dogs aren't too great at the human language. So I'm trying to teach the dogs tricks without using my voice and only using hand signals. It's working!. Sammy's on her way, but Lucy's doing great. More videos will be posted next time. =D
Here's a picture of Lucy, in the meantime:




But, also, you will not believe what Noah said. Well, maybe you might. I did, but I think it's pretty stupid. This was our final talk (that I know of... I really hope it is, though). From my studies (guys are complicated, no?), it seems he pretty much says I'm still single because I don't forget things that happen in my life:

"I learned that you're not easy to forget things no matter how big, small, happy or sad they are"

"And that's why you don't have a boyfriend"


Wow, Noah. Wow. That didn't make much sense. Not to me, anyways. Not to any of my friends, either. They're not too happy.

But I gotta say. I'm not really mad he thinks that. I'm not jumping up and down with happiness, but I'm definately not angry. I guess... Maybe I even think it's sorta funny because that made no sense whatsoever. Yes. Yes; I think that's it...

Stay tuned.

It isn't even the first day of school yet...

... And I already have a crush on somebody!. A ninth-grade somebody.

Uh-oh.

Well, it all started at Summer Bridge. In other words, I'm helping out with orientation at my school for the incoming freshmen.

And, (unfortunately?), I'm developing a crush on somebody.

A ninth-grade somebody. Uh-oh, indeed. Right?

His name's Brian (or is it Bryan?), and he's... cool, I guess. Marco and I (but mostly Marco), think he bears a resemblance to Johnn Napalm (those who play Guitar Hero may find themselves laughing very hard). I told Marco his name was Bryan, so now he's Bryan Dynamite.

But I'm about done repeating myself; I'll do my best to add more on this ordeal (is it an ordeal?) tomorrow...

Stay tuned.

Health Midterm

Due to the results, I feel like the test itself: Crummy.

Haha.

Lame jokes cast aside, though, I really do feel awful. I can kiss my summer goodbye, cause once my parents find out I got a 68% on the midterm, I'm done for.

I'd love to call Noah. Too bad he doesn't answer his phone anymore... To my knowledge, anyways. Who am I kidding? He wouldn't care...

Stay tuned.

These are for Heather...

... And anyone else interested in Flagstone and my backyard. =/

Can you spell "heartbreak?"...

...I can.

N O A H.

Yup.

Remember when he said he liked me back and everything? Epic lie. What's more is that there's someone else.

But I feel fine about that [[Wow!.]]; it's something else that really bothers me...

Why is everybody worried about autism? So many people are avoiding vaccinations because of it. Is it really something worth maybe risking your life for? Is being different really that bad?

And that's not the end of it. I'm so mad at David, beyond foul language. He is so on his last straw. He is beyond his last straw. He is now in negative straws.

Whatever.

Many of HTHCV's new incoming students will have disorders such as autism and ADHD. Fran decided it would be best if we researched these disorders. I said I would cover autism; and David said...

"I used to think I have autism. Turned out I was just stupid."

He thought this was a joke, by the way. I have no idea why this bothers me so much and whatever went down with Noah doesn't.


Maybe because... I'm autistic... And I don't see why that's so bad.

Well, actually, I am diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. Which, technically, is autism.

I have no idea why so many people look down on it; autism and Asperger's, to be precise. Are we different because we're bad? I like being different. I guess I like being bad, in doing so.

I know who I can talk to about this. I already talked to an adult; Fran was not too happy of a camper. But I really hope I can see Julian tomorrow.

Julian has been one of my best friends since seventh grade. He is one of the funnest people to talk to. He knows what's been going on with Noah and I; I know he can cheer me up...

Stay tuned.

Yet to come...

...Is my alleged first date. Noah's got his job; I understand; so I'm pretty much ready when he is. I don't know how I'm so patient.

So far it's me, Julian, Summer, Alissa, Justine, Gaby, two of her friends and Michelle, thinking [[brace yourself]] that Ben Barnes and I are related somehow. Which, I guess, is pretty crazy.

And I'm taking a Health course this summer, which I don't like too much because my parents pretty much signed me up without talking to me and just expect me to understand it right off the bat, which is pretty irritating. It's like not getting out of school until August seventh... And having to go back less than two weeks later! It's ironic how my parents are worried I'll be bored [[and I won't, believe me]], and in doing so, take almost my whole summer away...

Fifteenth birthday is tomorrow; I'm pretty sure I'm going to the Padres game [[they're handing out retro A-Gonzalez jerseys!]], maybe Alissa'll be there... I'm turning fifteen and I haven't even had a birthday party yet. Ever.

Isn't it ironic how you're younger and you say you've never had a birthday party, then people think "That's too bad" and leave it at that? Every time I tell someone I've never had a birthday party, everyone wigs out. It's strange...

Stay tuned.

One small step for someone else...

One giant leap for me!

...Or, at least, I think that's how it goes.

Well, I asked Noah out...

...And he said yes!

Since I've been gone...

...SO much has happened!

I saw PRINCE CASPIAN. Ben Barnes is pretty hunk-ish [[and out of my league]], if I do say so myself. To me, THE LION, THE WITCH, AND THE WARDROBE was a little better than this one, but it was still pretty cool.



A few weeks back, our school stayed overnight at this one camp in Imperial Beach. I had a crush on a counselor. He was Australian. And I do mean Australian. It was AWESOME. It was so beautiful down by the beach...

Well, I have also been texting Noah... He's called me pretty! Dane thinks Noah likes me back [["It's a guy thing," says Dane]].

In fifteen days, school'll be out for us till August 20th! I can't wait for sophomore year... But until then, who knows what'll happen this summer? And I'm turning fifteen in twenty-two days. Can't wait... ;)

...Stay tuned.

PS: I've also been working on my Australian accent; it's coming along great and it drives people insane! lol

I don't quite get this...

I feel like I would do anything to talk to Noah. He's the nicest guy and I haven't seen him in such a long time...

Alana has his phone number, and I recall giving her Rob's when she asked for it... And who knows what happened after that...

Well, Rob does go to HTHCV [[who are now to be known officially from here on out as the Cheetahs.]], where everyone knows everyone... But I know Noah, and Noah knows me... I'm also positive because when Lauren asked if he remembered me from bowling, he said yes. I'm not sure what's holding me back from asking Alana for his number.

Also, get this: Brandon and I were talking, and told me that David said he was working out now... And knowing David, there's no doubt he's doing it for me. Because Brandon told me that he was. And even if he didn't, and you know what type of person David is, well, this would be your first guess, too, if it wasn't already... I can't believe he'd think I'd date him for looks! Even if he is working out, I'll never forgive him for how mean he was... No, is to my friends!

If I do ask Alana for Noah's number, will she give it to me? Would Noah get freaked out? Would it change things for a while? Or for good?...

Stay tuned.

There are better ways to kick off and spend a weekend...

I'm trying to talk to Cory again. From what I've heard, the fact that he's dating Rachelle isn't a fact. So here I go again. I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm invisible. Catherine says I'm not loud enough, but oh, how I beg to differ.

Also, the meet that will last my entire weekend is tomorrow. Normally it would be the last thing on my mind, but Noah will be there. I'm not sure if I even want to look at him. Maybe he'll see through this. Maybe he'll care, but I'm not sure if I want that or not...

Stay tuned.

So soon?

Yes, so soon. So very, very soon...

Alana told me that Noah is taken today. Or loves someone. Not me, and...
Well, let's backtrack just a wee bit, shall we?

When I first saw Noah, Alana told me that I couldn't like him; something was wrong with him. I thought that maybe he was ill. Ill or challenged; something I could see past and I could love him anyways.

Why did something like that have to be hidden for so long? And disguised so that I could think something like that. Why couldn't I know this sooner? So that I could... So that I could know that I didn't stand a chance before I fell in love and thought that we were meant to be. Cause that's how it felt when we first met. I was confident and I was a different person. I made eye contact and I was smiling the whole entire time.

That Saturday, I learned that he was going to watch the meet this coming weekend. I couldn't wait. Now I'll do anything to have that day not come. And I have to swim at that meet. Does that suck or what?

Every time like this is going to end exactly the same. I'll find out Noah doesn't love me, then I'll get so hurt that I can't even stand to look at him. And because we even actually know each other now, it'll suck even more because if he cares as much about me to notice that I'm down, he'll ask what's wrong and I'll have to end up telling him something I wanted to be kept secret for at least two weeks... No matter where you are, who you are or what has happened... Under any circumstances, nothing is ever, ever completely okay.

It was so funny because just this morning I thought he'd like me back... To think that this morning, I actually wanted the weekend to happen. I can't love Noah. Not now anyways...

Stay tuned.

Photo-editing skills!

Picnik is a really awesome place to edit photos; it's really fun! So far I have...

The Game of Destiny!

So there was a fundraiser at Brunswick for SBA today. I didn't really want to go, but there wasn't a bunch of things to do around the house, so I went.

I went bowling with my team, and at the end, I met the nicest guy! His name is Noah and his brother and sister are on the team. I've never met a guy like him! We actually shook hands, and he actually knows my name, too. He is a phenomenal bowler; I'm not kidding. He made a strike throwing the ball backwards!


He's a sophomore and he plays lacrosse and water polo; from what I've seen, he's such a family guy!...


Stay tuned.

I have bad news, bad news, and that much good news.

For the bad news, I found out that Will doesn't like me back and I didn't win that contest.

The good news is that I didn't count on winning anyways, and I think I actually feel happier knowing about Will not liking me. I kind of feel like I can move on and I literally felt myself breathing easier... (:

Stay tuned.

Not another guy update

Ohhh yes. Another guy update.

You know what's worse? Because I kept procrastinating, this post is gonna be a long one.

THE STALKER FILES [[tee-hee]]

The picture below may be a better one... [[My friend stole this one, teehee.]]

Name: Will
Height: 6'
Weight: How should I know
School: HTHCV
Age: Fourteen
Anything else?:

-We both LOVE Padres baseball
-AKA "The Tree" [[Kudos to Joey!]]
-Oh. Austin really screwed things up...

Well, not only because Will and Austin are friends, but because Austin just screws up this sort of thing for everyone. He kind of makes a big deal out of it... So now everytime they enter a room that I'm in, Austin goes, "Look who it is, Will!"

UPDATE: Rob [[who is both mine and Will's friend]] is going to try talking to him about it... Or so I think...

Stay tuned.

LATE-NIGHT UPDATE:

Remember Keith? Here's a picture.

"He fell asleep with his wet sweater on his lap," said Joey. Riiiight. lol. j/k.

Contest Update

Still no word- I'm giving this about another... Week? [[That's me being generous in this situation.]]

Oh, well. I guess it doesn't really matter to me if I lose this. At least I tried, right?

It just dawned on me yesterday...

... I haven't posted in a while!

Well, Mom found out a was even thinking about becoming a video game tester yesterday, so now she thinks I'm useless, lazy and I have no ambition... And she said I shouldn't be surprised if my friends become successful after college.

What the heck.

And from what I'm hearing around school, Sean [[you should know him by now]] left The Glares. I'm still on this; trying to find out why.

The time is nearing closer and closer by day... Soon, maybe even tomorrow!, I'm going to find out if I won that contest to meet Tony...

Stay tuned.

Bad news for those who followed me on this...

I found out on Friday night that Cory has a girlfriend... He's dating Rachel, and I guess I can say I don't blame him. She's pretty and nice and fun to be around. Sigh...

A new poll has been put up. You lucky ducks from the previous poll have won; we're staying ATM. So if you have never heard those songs before, you might want to hear them, or if you know any other Disney songs you think we should think about, tell us! Well, tell me anyways.

I guess I don't want to be like Marco's band. They've changed their name so much. When they started, they were The Ruse, and they're constantly changing. They were Deoxygenation after The Ruse, then they were One Shot Repeaters, and now they're The Glares. Who knows what's next for them. Speaking of Marco's band...
Josh, their bassist left the band last week. Why? Sean [[the butt-headed rhythm guitarist]] has a short temper. I was even there in Music when it happened. Josh left a CD in a computer and Sean, like he does for everything else, absolutely blew up over it. I just didn't expect Josh to leave...

I'm also starting on a new poem that I might read off at our school's next pep rally. Here's what I have so far...

-Don't be jealous of clever people; you yourself could learn more.
-Make sure your own hands are clean before you point and laugh at different people. You laugh 'cause they're different, but they laugh 'cause you're all the same.
-Don't mess with socials. They know their way around.
-And don't shun lovers. Even if they make you jealous.
-Never tune out a musician; they're just clever people. And what did we say about clever people?
-Don't rain on a happy person's parade. Even if they don't make you laugh, they have good intentions.
-Emos have issues like everyone else.
-Don't boo the athletes. Just get off the couch.
-Don't tell a quiet person to speak up, 'cause sometimes, there's just not much to say.
-And don't tell loud people to shut up because they just want to be heard.
-Leave the insensitive people be. They just aren't feelin' it.

And I guess that's just about everything that's been happening in my life since I've been gone from Blogger...

Stay tuned.

FINALLY.

After, what? Three weeks? I am FINALLY ready to send in this entry form. And with good timing, too because the contest ends in March and then they go through the grueling process of choosing a winner. So no matter if I win or lose, you'll be hearing from me about what happens around the beginning of April...

Stay tuned.

So I MAY have forgotten to post this...

Hehehe... Um.

So there is a contest to win a chance to meet Tony. Yes I am going to enter. Of course, Caitie already had her fun [[could there be more?]] of putting me down with, "Are you really that desperate?" and, "For all you know, he could come off as a real jerk!"

Okay that was really mean. Entering a contest doesn't make you desperate, and famous jerks don't reply to fanmail [[this I can prove.]]

So, in short terms, I'm going to enter a contest with dignity to meet Tony, who is not a jerk. Wish me luck...

Stay tuned.

If it's not one person, then it's another...

Or at least that's the theme these days! So now everything is okay between Catherine and I, but now Valentine's Day is bringing out a never-before-seen side in Caitie. And Mom. But you know. Mom is Mom and this side isn't really a surprise. Why? 'Cause she's Mom. That's why.

Mom is going through the whole, "You're too young to love anyone" phase; Caitie doesn't help sympathyzing with my whole Valentine's Day situation. I told her about it in the car, and she continues, "I have everything I could possibly want."

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Gee thanks, lady. Her dad sent her a beautiful handpainted sweater and a necklace, and she has my friend, Dane. She's such a mom on relationships, too! Recently, she said the reason I don't have a boyfriend was because I was still "at the age" where "all the boys you know are just friends". It would probably make sense if (A) Neither of us were dating, or (B) She wasn't about to enter a one-year anniversary with Dane...

And if she finds out about Luke and/or drills into me about him, I swear, I'll drop it and go insane. Now not only had she better not pull the "your to young to love" thing, but she'd better not say Luke won't work for me because he's thirteen. That is, if I even get to a first date. Or even him saying he likes me back... But that's an entry for another time... Possibly very soon. Because Dane is thirteen, too, and it would be so annoying if she pulled either of those off... Or both...

Stay tuned.

PS: I told Luke about the whole "your too young thing" with Caitie. He called her a dork. =^P

I feel like such an idiot...

No. In the past night I, did not talk to (A) Cory. Or (B) his friend [[whose name is officially Kevin]]. Which, (C) frankly is really not the biggest loss in the situation. I just had to throw in that C. The biggest loss in the situation is (A): I did not talk to Cory. On such a great opportunity. Come on; first practice, totally new... Why am I so shy? And it wasn't just Cory; if it weren't for some friendly people I'd be friendless because I'm too shy to actually reach out to other people... Well, guys anyways. Becuause Kylie, Rachel and Angelina aren't guys. And they aren't exactly unfriendly girls, either. Oh yeah. And Cory isn't a freshman, either. He's a sophomore. And he plays lacrosse [[Help me? Hurt me? Neither? Who knows.]]. And my parents are totally on my back about him. About the third thing Mom said after practice was, and I quote, "Did you talk to that Cory boy?"

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No, Mom. I did not find a valentine in Cory within the last two hours. Maybe she'd rather I ended up with Kevin. Hey, it'd be a heck of a lot easier... He's a freshman. But that would probably only aid Mom, becuase even a year before I joined, she hoped I would join a symphony and find a "cute violinist boy". I guess the fact that he plays first violin really just aids everything in this whole "sophomore bassist [[and the only one at that]] vs. freshman violinist". Oh, and they're best friends, too. That totally either hurts me. Or helps me. But almost definately hurts me.

Oh and I don't want to take music theory again. "Try it out and see if you'll like it," said Dad. Sure, that was my idea, too, till I figured out they test you on it, too. So much for just spacing out for an hour, huh? Now not only do I have to stay late, but be disoriented from, I dunno, some kind of music overdose? Oh yeah [[am I saying this too much?]], and Cory's in that class, too [["Cory stays for music theory," says Catherine... By the way, we're cool now. If I mean anything to her, she'll stop and she really seems to be making an effort =^)]]. Yeah, so isn't Cory staying afterwards another reason for me NOT to stay for music theory? I just hope it's not too late to change my mind...

Stay tuned.

Leaving for YS practice pretty soon...

...Wish me luck...

Stay tuned.

The countdown begins...

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Hmm... Maybe I secretly LIKE going insane???

Again, it's been a while, Blogger!

So all of my life, I would pray to God because I was head over heels [[right?]] for someone and I wanted to full-on bring them into my life. A lot of the time, it didn't work, but this time, well...

During the week of the YS audition, I found out I had feeling for... [[Look: Email or comment me if you want to know. But here's a quick hint: LOOK AROUND on my blog. And if you still don't get it and you want to know, email or comment me anyways.]] And Tony. And Corey [[and maybe even his best friend! =^O]] So in retrospect, my head is swimming and what's inside it is going downhill. Is that normal?

So now, my prayers have been answered... And then some. Well, actually, my prayers have been answered. So as a price, I have to pray to get myself outta my own desires! I'm also going to write a song about this... Maybe Naomi or Kay can help me out?

And guess what! Valentine's Day is coming! To bad my life's being taken by storm, huh?...

Stay tuned.

Birthday pics!

Alana sent pictures at Ned's party [[mine didn't work]]

"Thank you for your patronage"... You're frikkin welcome.


"Fancy!" XD

Alana just tries so hard to get a picture of Luke... [[Remember Luke?]]


But Luke's really just too fast for her...

Garret [[remember Garret?]]

You'll never guess!

Never guess what? That I'm playing Wii? Well... I am but...

I MADE IT IN TO ECYS!!!

And with a small twist of irony [[is it irony?]], Corey showed up right when I finished the audition. Crazy, right?...

Stay tuned.

Isn't it beautiful?

Speaking of which, I should save up! More details coming soon!

UPDATE: Hey look! Details!

Hello, for auction is a rare 1996 Les Paul Catalina Custom Shop guitar. This one is in the coolest color, which is called Cascade Green - sort of like a turquoise and a very eye-catching finish on a Paul. Has a long neck tenon, ebony fretboard, and MOP inlays and is really awesome to see in person. Unlike most Catalina Les Pauls, this is a solid body that is not chambered like other Catalinas. I think this was a limited run with this feature. Condition is excellent +++, with some hard to see checking in the nitro top, and a tiny ding on the rim. A fantastic player that looks great too. Thanks for looking! keyword marshall fender vox amp

this guitar is likely a prototype for the Catalina Les Paul series, as there are some cosmetic differences and this is a solid body - not chambered guitar. Also , the pickups '57 Classic PAF 's ...

PBR UPDATE

I almost forgot! On Sunday, I mastered POKEMON BATTLE REVOLUTION for wii with a playtime of 16 hours and 16 minutes! [[Please note: I did not play 16 hours and 16 minutes straight, but I'm sure the four hours I played on the first day I got it really gave me a leg up.]]

I might decide to call it quits...

Catherine even knows now that not everything's okay, but she acts like everything's fine! On the way to and from school, all her and Caitie talk about is Tim Burton films! And it's not like I don't want to join, but I have no earthly idea what's going on! It's crazy. I can say something and they'll totally act [[are they acting?]] like they can't even hear me. Or they really can't. They blast their iPods as one now and sing "The Nightmare Before Christmas" songs in the back seat of the van. And when they don't, they talk about Tim Burton films and pay me no heed whatsoever. I'll bet I can tell Dad all about this while they're talking and they wouldn't hear a thing. XD

I'm also concerned about joining ECYS. High expecting judges, totally new people... I have an 100% chance of sitting next to someone new. I'm just so shy about this...

But not all's bad. A kid from the intermediate group, Luke,swims with us now, and he's been really sweet towards me... He's in eighth grade and he's thirteen. Alana [[friend from swim/school]] is so weird. She said, and I quote:

"If you get married it won't really matter that he is a year younger."

What the...

Stay tuned.

So I couldn't find out the make and model...

But in the meantime, heere's... Blake!

Things I made up that sound cool and inspirational and stuff... To me. I dunno about you...

The wind is beneath and behind you when you run. Even if it blows against you, don't stop. And remember: The wind may be below you, but the stars are always above...

Now for a [[not so]] quick update:

Catherine [[AKA DoomCough. Kudos to you, Dad! X^D]] and I had a little conversation in the car before leaving for school...

DoomCough: So [[her]] Mom told me you were going to try out for Youth Symphony.
Me: Yeah.
DoomCough: She knows you're just doing it for the guy [[Corey]].

Okay, freeze!... If I didn't join for Corey BEFORE, what would make her think I am NOW???

Me: No; I'm doing it because Mom wants me to.
DoomCough: Well you know that you have to audition.
Me: I know.
DoomCough: And they have high expectations.

Pause here: I live with Mom here. Don't think I don't know high expectations. Let's continue...

Me: I understand.
DoomCough: And you're kinda bad.

We're gonna stop here one last time; the discussion is over because her mom was ready to leave and I guess she didn't wanna get caught dissing me. But consider this: The most recent and only time she's ever heard me play is in my first week of seventh grade, when I first got my violin and I didn't know a lot. Of COURSE I was bad.

So I am just getting back into the swing of playing. My previous, high-strung tutor left, which left me with laid-back, easy-going Andre [[That's the fifth Andre in my book, BTW.]].

Which means I will close with one more inspiring thing. In my case:

I have friends outside of Catherine [[and yes, even Tony!]] and a son* who believes in everything I do. Just so long as they're behind me, there's nothing I can't do.

*Son: My eight-year old friend, Garret, and I are so close! He's really cute and I'll add a picture of him as soon as I fix my camera. Or just use Dad's. Who knows? I'm sort of like his unbiological [[is that a word?]] mom, and if Tony were to like me back, that could make him his unbiological dad. Garret actually does bear a resemblance to Tony. Same hair and eye color. Wow. Just wow...

Stay tuned.

True love, friendship, and... Love.

WARNING: GET READY. IT'S A LONG ONE.



So.



Catherine is the best person I've ever met at leading me on. Even better than Dad, who hasn't even been doing it lately. =^)

But why? Let me fill you in...



TIMELINE

12.01.2007: Cathering invites me to her sister's Youth Symphony concert. She needed someone to go with her, I needed someone to battle. Go figure. I see Corey; the inevitable has happened.

12.06.2007: Catherine knows about me liking Corey and says we're a match and invites me to the next YS practice. Says it's cool with her mom.

12.08.2007: Catherine says it's a no-go all of the sudden?

She does this one more time the following week, but the time after THAT [[this time]], it actually starts to bother me...

01.17.2008: So she asked me to the YS practice. Again. Once again, her mom says it's cool.

Or did she? Because on...

01.18.2008: Catherine again says it's a no-go. And tries to make it up with window shopping. Which I actually didn't mind. But her mom said she lied about that, too...

What's up with her??? Catherine, I mean. It's one thing that she's lying, but it's another that we're dealing potential love here!

...Unless she was leading me on about Corey being right for me, too? I don't wanna risk that. No. I know that's true. Gulp.

I mean... What's up with that?

Also, an update about the whole passion conflict: I got a call from Todd Keegan, the executive director of the E[[ast]]C[[ounty]]Y[[outh]]S[[ymphony]]. Which obviously means SOMEBODY[[this is the part where I look at squarely at Mom]] called him BEFOREHAND.

Okay. So the only reason I'm playing violin is because Mom and Dad got me into some sort of deal without me knowing [[so is it really a deal?]] that I can only move forward in guitar if I keep violin alive. I had no idea this involved me having to join a group!... When I SUCK. I'm playing violin for the first time in a year! Mom wants me to join ECYS??? Which, incidently, is the same ECYS Corey is a part of.

Hm...

Stay tuned.

PS: The Carvin [[New Name Pending]] is tuned and has a new battery!

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Um, Mr. Celebrity Crush?



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Okay, so I think his voice is okay. It's not the worst I've heard. But...

Oh yeah! And the meet went fantasic! I got second in the 50 Free with a time of 34.94! I don't know how the 100 and 200 Free went yet, though, but I feel very confident...

Stay tuned.

Could celebrity crushes...

Be making a comeback?

Well, for me, anyways. I've been crushing on, um, "normal" guys for quite a while.

But! You don't know what any of them look like do you?!? Why? Well...

1. I can't take a picture of a guy and not look like a freak. Stalker, if you will.
2. Therefore, I do not have a picture of Corey.
3. Or Keith.
4. But do you really want to see a picture of Keith?

Didn't think so. && It also kind of looks like a "no" with Steven [[remember Steven?]], so... Okay.

Who'd the celebrity crush you're wondering? Um...

Stay tuned.

DP UPDATE

My Digital Portfolio, in the words of Mr. Davis, is now officially done! Once again, a link to it is here:

http://students.hthcv.hightechhigh.org/~erandazzo/

My friend

You can tell a lot about a person by their blog. When you see Dane's, you're gonna find we're different. Really different. But he's a great friend.

A link to his blog
http://haxrule.blogspot.com/

A link to his DP
http://students.hthcv.hightechhigh.org/~cbarland/

So. Yeah. Check 'em out. I guess.

Eeewww

There's a meet this weekend and I don't want to swim at it. Why do I hate meets so much? I never really do that well. The best I've ever done is third, and I didn't even get a medal. They forgot. I also just don't like losing to people who are way better than me. I suck at meets. I know. I don't need reminding. Really.

There was a period of time in '07 when I didn't feel well, and Dad thought I was going to quit swimming. "Don't quit!" he pleaded. "You don't have to swim inthe meets!"

Of course, I wasn't going to quit. But I took his word for it.

That was a bad lie. Seriously...

Stay tuned...

O_O

That was quite a post there! But anyways, I feel bad about doing this, I feel like I'm bragging because, um, I've gotten farther in my Digital Portfolio than David. A lot father...

http://students.hthcv.hightechhigh.org/~erandazzo/

I'm really a modest person, though. Seriously. I am. Maybe that's why I feel kind of bad?

I think David's has... Pontential though. Um... Okay. =^/

PS: Mine isn't really done, which probably makes me feel a bit worse about the whole modesty issue. If you've been there yet, you'll see that my Environmental Engineering page is a bit lacking, so is my SIG/XBlock page. If you haven't, well, now you know. I'll be sure to get to work on those pages, and I'll post an update when I get some work done on those pages. But in the meantime, feel free to look around! =^)

PSS: Maybe I'll also get some links to my friends' DP's? Theirs' are cool. =^)

Involuntary Volunteering

Guess what?

Chicken butt? Close.

I get to be a "peer mentor" to David. Today's session was best because he didn't show up. Well, Fran [[my advisory teacher]] asked him to give her his binder but, David being on the debate team...

"I don't have enough time! I have to work on my digital portfolio!" PS: Here's a link to his.[[http://students.hthcv.hightechhigh.org/~dlance/]] Frankly, he turned something really simple into a negotiation. And during this, how do I put it, "battle of wits"?, he got the urge to scoot pretty dang close to me. I did tell Fran how I always felt uncomfortable around David, so we compromised to give it a shot, and if I don't like it, I can quit.

Didja see it yet? I'll wait here.

See? I don't blame him.

But how long does it take to get a frikkin folder? At that, a frikkin unorganized folder. I see why he needs help. I don't see how Fran talked me into this. Maybe because she mentioned something about "hours toward community service"? Hm. Maybe I'll just stay in?

I see what Joey meant by his, "Oh, he makes his own [[comics]]." comment. I can't really describe it. I can't put a picture on here, either. But either way, it was unfinished. And really... Um...

Let's just say I see what Joey meant...

I also see what Dad meant when he said my brother wouldn't do well in junior high and high school with his handwriting. Yup. David has John's handwriting. So let's make a deal. I'll do what I can to take a picture of David's work [[and maybe his comic]], then of John's work, and get them both on here. I obviously can't make a new poll now, so I guess you'll have to email/comment me instead. I'm sort of concerned now. I don't want John to be a David. Uh-oh. I never thought I'd say this, but I have to help John...

Stay tuned.

WooHoo!

It took a while, but I finally got it to work!

I added my playlist from http://www.finetune.com/ onto my blog. Check it out!

Blasphamy!

So John is getting an electric bassist to learn upright bass, which is bad for me for two reasons:

1)I didn't get this opportunity from Mom and Dad. Could this be... Bias???

2)If he learns electric, Mom and Dad might make him join ATM! And he's so... rude! Seriously. You'd agree if you knew him...

Stay tuned.

For the first time...

I'm wanting someone so bad I'm crying. Well, someone that isn't famous.

I don't want to not have Cory. He's so like Joe Jonas, but closer to me in so many ways. He's my age, and he lives closer to me, and... I only have two reasons so far...

Stay tuned.

This New Year's...

...Was [[I'll be honest]] very, VERY uneventful.
So how was New Years? I'll bet a bunch of you did something exciting. Throw a party? Spend the night at a friend's? Not so for me this year. Did you watch the ball drop this year? Not me. I got to watch the Philharmonic Orchestra. Live from Lincoln Hall. Joy. And every thirty minutes, I get preached at from mom. "Why can't you play violin that well?" Gee, I dunno. Maybe because I don't love it like I love guitar? It's a mystery, alright.
I'm watching "Nosferatu" on You Tube as I post this. It may be from 1922, but it scares the crap outta me. Serioiusly. Look it up on You Tube. At least catch a glimpse of the vampire, Count Orlok, which is the sole reason this movie scares me so badly. It's in black and white. What is it about black and white horror movies that entrances me so?
If you read the post previous to this one, you'll understand when I ask this:

Is it Spring yet?

I wonder if I'll work up the courage to at least speak to Cory. To flash a smile, to actually make eye contact?

Well, okay. So we made eye contact. But let's all find out what'll happen next shall we? I want it to be spring already! But the fact that I'm unsure of his status still haunts me...

Stay tuned.