There are better ways to kick off and spend a weekend...

I'm trying to talk to Cory again. From what I've heard, the fact that he's dating Rachelle isn't a fact. So here I go again. I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm invisible. Catherine says I'm not loud enough, but oh, how I beg to differ.

Also, the meet that will last my entire weekend is tomorrow. Normally it would be the last thing on my mind, but Noah will be there. I'm not sure if I even want to look at him. Maybe he'll see through this. Maybe he'll care, but I'm not sure if I want that or not...

Stay tuned.

So soon?

Yes, so soon. So very, very soon...

Alana told me that Noah is taken today. Or loves someone. Not me, and...
Well, let's backtrack just a wee bit, shall we?

When I first saw Noah, Alana told me that I couldn't like him; something was wrong with him. I thought that maybe he was ill. Ill or challenged; something I could see past and I could love him anyways.

Why did something like that have to be hidden for so long? And disguised so that I could think something like that. Why couldn't I know this sooner? So that I could... So that I could know that I didn't stand a chance before I fell in love and thought that we were meant to be. Cause that's how it felt when we first met. I was confident and I was a different person. I made eye contact and I was smiling the whole entire time.

That Saturday, I learned that he was going to watch the meet this coming weekend. I couldn't wait. Now I'll do anything to have that day not come. And I have to swim at that meet. Does that suck or what?

Every time like this is going to end exactly the same. I'll find out Noah doesn't love me, then I'll get so hurt that I can't even stand to look at him. And because we even actually know each other now, it'll suck even more because if he cares as much about me to notice that I'm down, he'll ask what's wrong and I'll have to end up telling him something I wanted to be kept secret for at least two weeks... No matter where you are, who you are or what has happened... Under any circumstances, nothing is ever, ever completely okay.

It was so funny because just this morning I thought he'd like me back... To think that this morning, I actually wanted the weekend to happen. I can't love Noah. Not now anyways...

Stay tuned.

Photo-editing skills!

Picnik is a really awesome place to edit photos; it's really fun! So far I have...

The Game of Destiny!

So there was a fundraiser at Brunswick for SBA today. I didn't really want to go, but there wasn't a bunch of things to do around the house, so I went.

I went bowling with my team, and at the end, I met the nicest guy! His name is Noah and his brother and sister are on the team. I've never met a guy like him! We actually shook hands, and he actually knows my name, too. He is a phenomenal bowler; I'm not kidding. He made a strike throwing the ball backwards!


He's a sophomore and he plays lacrosse and water polo; from what I've seen, he's such a family guy!...


Stay tuned.

I have bad news, bad news, and that much good news.

For the bad news, I found out that Will doesn't like me back and I didn't win that contest.

The good news is that I didn't count on winning anyways, and I think I actually feel happier knowing about Will not liking me. I kind of feel like I can move on and I literally felt myself breathing easier... (:

Stay tuned.

Not another guy update

Ohhh yes. Another guy update.

You know what's worse? Because I kept procrastinating, this post is gonna be a long one.

THE STALKER FILES [[tee-hee]]

The picture below may be a better one... [[My friend stole this one, teehee.]]

Name: Will
Height: 6'
Weight: How should I know
School: HTHCV
Age: Fourteen
Anything else?:

-We both LOVE Padres baseball
-AKA "The Tree" [[Kudos to Joey!]]
-Oh. Austin really screwed things up...

Well, not only because Will and Austin are friends, but because Austin just screws up this sort of thing for everyone. He kind of makes a big deal out of it... So now everytime they enter a room that I'm in, Austin goes, "Look who it is, Will!"

UPDATE: Rob [[who is both mine and Will's friend]] is going to try talking to him about it... Or so I think...

Stay tuned.

LATE-NIGHT UPDATE:

Remember Keith? Here's a picture.

"He fell asleep with his wet sweater on his lap," said Joey. Riiiight. lol. j/k.

Contest Update

Still no word- I'm giving this about another... Week? [[That's me being generous in this situation.]]

Oh, well. I guess it doesn't really matter to me if I lose this. At least I tried, right?